I am someone who has learned to view life differently since the death of my daughter Kiana in 2009. The day
Kiana had passed away was the single worse day of my life. Her passing was a total shock for all of her family and friends, not just me. As a mother, you just never expect that your child will pass away before you. It is just not the way life is supposed to happen. Right after her wake and funeral I started reading many books about grief, and "Life" after death. When you lose a child you just need to know that your loved one is still there, somewhere, anything to give you some comfort. After reading grief books I started reading books about spirituality, which gave me a different perspective on life. I have come to realize that we are not alone in this thing called "Life". Besides the fact that we have each other, and we are truly one with God, and with God the Archangels, our guardian angels, and of course all of our loved ones that passed before us to help us along the way. We are all here for the same agenda, to awaken and make life here on earth as it is in heaven. Remember, we are spirits having a human experience. We ARE a soul, not we have a soul. Just as we nurture our bodies to live we need to nurture our souls to awaken and be who we truly are, who we came here to be.
When my girls were growing up, I always firmly knew in my heart, that I would die in an instant to save any one of my children, would not give it a second thought. I think most parents understand and feel this also. Through my healing from deep grief, I can honestly say that Kiana's death has been a blessing to me. I thought people would think I was crazy for feeling this way, but I knew at that moment that I was not crazy, for if I would die in an instant to save any one of my children, why would I not LIVE for my daughter Kiana. For when someone is "stuck" in deep grief and can't function in everyday life, it truly holds back the soul of your loved one, for they do not stop living or loving just because they are not in the physical world anymore. Just like we who are here, have lessons to learn on our soul's path, they still have work to do in the spirit realm. Only when we who are here grieve so deeply, it holds our loved ones souls back and hurts them, because they want us to be happy. Don't get me wrong, I still miss my Kiana immensely, only now I know her spirit is with me every day and I can accept that because God has His reasons for everything. Who am I to argue with God? I cannot be angry with him at all. Without Him we would have nothing, be nothing. For I am totally grateful for all that our creator has given to us all.
I have been to a few mediums since Kiana has passed. I never considered going prior to that. I know for me it was one way of reaching out to Kiana and hearing that she was okay. Any connection is better than no connection. Since Kiana had passed in Oct 2009, my life has changed immensely. We lost my uncle 4 months after Kiana and my mom 10 months after Kiana. I lost my job of 14 years one year and one month after Kiana passed. You see, I made a lot of mistakes in that year and my company had to let me go. It was a surprise when it happened, but I survived the loss of my daughter, so why shouldn't I survive the loss of a mundane job.
I am an author, a nature photographer, which I started before Kiana passed. Nowadays, I have many odd jobs that I do. I have taught myself about crystals and their healing properties. I wire wrap gemstones to make pendants, I make Tree of Life pendants, bracelets and Crystal trees which you can see on this website. I am an Advanced Reiki Practioner, which I love. Reiki is amazingly wonderful for your health, spiritual growth and inner peace.
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